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The Brothers Thirteen

2011-12-11T23:02:00.000-08:00

Hey all,

Looks like we're progressing nicely with the new blog. We're posting frequently and having fun with it. If any of you outsiders looking in find this house with the lights off, we've moved and are pretty much paying the electric bills at our original sites. So come check us out and have a good time with us! Or don't. The Brothers Thirteen. And if you haven't been keeping up with all the music at Enter the Shell, be sure to take a look at who I've picked as artist of the week for the past nine months...hey, doesn't that mean I'm about ready to give birth to an EtS baby?! WWHHAAAAAA!!!!

New Blog

2011-12-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone, my cousin and I started a new blog which will essentially combine what we normally do on our blogs, but roll them into one. It's called The Brothers Thirteen. It's where I'll likely end up posting most of my stuff from here on out, so check it regularly as we're getting back into the swing of writing things on a more consistent basis. Link above and it'll be added to your links on the left. Enjoy!

Album of the Year

2011-12-05T21:00:00.000-08:00

So for the past six months since I discovered the Protomen I haven't been able to put down their albums. I know to many it may seem as though the concept of a rock opera based on a favorite childhood video game series is not worth listening to, but if you're thinking that way then you would be dead wrong. The creativity of the music and the character development that go through the music make the story one of the most fun, bad ass, powerful, and (dare I say) emotional pieces of work I've listened to.

Since I started listening to the Protomen I try to find any excuse to work them into a conversation, play their music for others, and constantly imagine what their work would look like as a stage performance or on screen. Songs like "the Hounds" just get you singing along like crazy while "Keep Quiet" makes you feel like you're the one taking that stand against a bloodthirsty robot. There's even the grim realization that the one hero you looked up to your entire life has turned his back on the world, only to become your enemy like in "the Stand (Man or Machine)." The Protomen have turned a childhood game of mine into a mature, dark vision of a dystopia mixed with the classic struggle of good versus evil and what it means to be human. I eagerly await the day they finish the third act to find out the fates of Megaman, Tom Light, Albert Wily, and the human race.

If you haven't checked them out, this you tube page has been kind enough to post both acts for your listening pleasure. Though you may not have the liner notes from the album itself to fill in the gaps and read the backstory, you can easily find those on various lyrics sites throughout the internet. Start the epic battle here.

News for 11/22/11

2011-11-22T19:54:00.000-08:00

Going to the doctor's office today I was listening to 88.7 KSPC, the public radio station in my area, and happened upon the band you see below. Not to sound like a pledge drive or anything, but I'm certainly glad that public radio exists. It's through public radio and music websites dedicated to the spread and love of music that helps me to find new and different artists outside the flavors of the week provided by commercial radio. Enough of that, enjoy the song!

Baseball and the Summer

2011-07-16T17:45:00.000-07:00

Baseball and Summer just go hand-in-hand. And dammit, it's American! So whoever you root for, get the barbecue going, turn on the ball game, and have a totally rockin' summer (yes, I realize it's halfway over with, just go with it)!

New York, Philadelphia, Oregon

2011-07-16T15:31:00.000-07:00

Updates:
New York and Philadelphia were great. Went on a general food tour. It's true. The pizza is better in New York. Heading up to Oregon for the next two weeks. More good food and fun times to come. I'll be updating the artist of the week section while I'm away, so don't forget to check out the site to read my picks, check out the other blogs, and listen to the shows for good musicians and my brief appearances in case you want to hear my lovely voice. And check out our latest artist to stop by the studio, Megan Bonnell. I'll try and put some pictures of my travels up soon. Hope you're all having a good summer. Bye for now.

4th of July

2011-06-30T16:49:00.000-07:00

This 4th of July find out what Americans really want:

News and Events

2011-06-29T14:56:00.000-07:00

Friday I leave for New York for six days to spend time with some cool people. I'll be back about a week (and change) before setting out to Oregon with the family for about two weeks. While I'm away, you'll still get to check out my picks for artist of the week over at Enter the Shell. For those of you who seem to like my writing (even if it's just ok) and need your fix because I don't really update this anymore, here's my segment. Happy (pre) 4th of July.

Target and Soap

2011-06-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

I was at Target the other day and noticed that many of the liquid soaps had "gel douche" written on them. I laughed.

Music and Video Games

2011-06-13T16:26:00.001-07:00

Why was I never informed of the greatness that is the Protomen? A band devoted to the rewriting of the Megaman story through totally awesome music? Forget the brightly-colored, happy cartoon, this is the dark re-imagining that Megaman and friends have needed! Now all we need is a kick-ass, gritty movie to go along with this rockin' soundtrack. Check out the Protomen -->here<--

Music

2011-06-12T13:56:00.001-07:00

Hey all you cool kids out there, here's a video for Built by Snow's "Invaders." Enjoy the madness:

Week of 6/10

2011-06-10T14:42:00.001-07:00

Check out this week's show. Great set and interview with --> Greg Holden <-- (watch that video there to get you hooked). Also, check out what I have to say about our artist of the week! More later. I promise some non EtS stuff soon.

EtS

2011-06-08T13:30:00.000-07:00

New episode of the Enter the Shell Show up tomorrow. This week we'll have artist Greg Holden and some new clues for AotW. Stop by entertheshell.com tomorrow for your fix of goodness. Here's last week's artist of the week. And last week's show.

Last Tuesday

2011-05-05T14:31:00.000-07:00

For those of you who still read this and don't know: Last Tuesday I had my nuts cut open and my intestines shoved back into my stomach. Hernia surgery. Now it's hard to walk and I'm on pain pills 4 times a day and stool softeners twice a day. Go me. 4-6 week recovery time. Still writing for EtS. New article up tomorrow.

New Artist of the Week

2011-04-22T16:29:00.000-07:00

Out now on entertheshell.comhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif Enjoy.

Artist of the Week

2011-04-14T15:33:00.000-07:00

New edition of Artist of the Week comes out tomorrow at 10. Find out who it is. Check it out --> here <--http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif

Writing Again

2011-04-07T16:50:00.000-07:00

Hey all you loyal followers. For those out of the loop, here's some informational updates on things happening:
1) I'm back in the states as of a couple months ago
2) I'm writing again, but this time for Enter the Shell. I'm scheduled for 10 "Artist of the Week" installments due every Friday and a call in with clues as to who they might be the Tuesday before. If you're not already on their website, get to it. My first clues were this past Tuesday, and my first AotW comes out tomorrow.
3) As for work, so far...nothing.
I hope everyone is doing well and keep a lookout for my posts on Enter the Shell. Maybe it'll get me writing on this once again.

Lowe!

2010-11-22T18:24:00.000-08:00

Annoying

2010-10-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

Hello all,

I know that I haven't really written anything lately. And this will not be about life changing experiences here in Korea or about my time here (actually, it's a little about my time here) or even about me coming back. It's about something so wretched and foul that I must bring it to light. Annoying Orange.

If you're unfamiliar with Annoying Orange, consider yourself fortunate. Half-witted attempts at being humorous by using slogans from 10-year old TV commercials and completely irritating routines. The creator of this can get away with people who actually see the remarkable stupidity in this by citing the title of the character. "Well, it's meant to be annoying," they may say.

Why is this worthy of my coming out of hiding to complain? Because some dumb broad at work, thinking this the most hilarious piece of comedy, decided to spread it to all of the students who, not knowing any better (being that they're 1st to 8th graders, and really, what the hell do kids know about comedy?), can't get enough of it. And those students spread it to their brothers and sisters in my classes. Now it's quotes from this god-awful mess and chants for "teacher, Annoying Orange! Please, teacher! We want to watch!" Which subsequently leads to rants as to the lack of intelligence and comedic value that Annoying Orange possesses. This still does not dissuade the students from loving the hell out of that turd.

So, to the co-worker who shall remain nameless, thank you for making the last few months of my stay here slightly more irritating while in class. And I know I've given this shitbag free advertisement, so I'll refrain from posting a link. If you're so desperate to see what I'm talking about, look it up yourself. I promise, you'll regret it.

Taiwan

2010-09-25T22:41:00.000-07:00

Went to Taiwan for Chuseok vacation (Korean Thanksgiving). Here are some photos from the trip.

Great New Video

2010-08-24T02:59:00.001-07:00

Ted Leo wins with this one (then again, he always wins in my opinion). Not only is the video hilarious, but it also strikes that commentary on how retarded many musicians have gotten in this day and age. This is "Bottled in Cork" from their latest album the Brutalist Bricks.
http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/3cbac7e38c/ted-leo-and-the-pharmacists-bottled-in-cork-official-video?rel=player

Also, check out the brilliant set-up to this video that teased all:
http://www.tedleo.com/2010/08/20/majorly-massive-career-trajectory-news-you-might-say-paradigm-shift-even/

Ko-Ko's

2010-08-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

I'd say this hi-larious song speaks volumes about the struggle of foreign males in Korea looking for Korean females. Enjoy.

Song by Cee Lo

Engrish

2010-02-06T23:02:00.001-08:00

http://engrish.com/

Gotta love Asia.

Dammit Korea!

2010-02-04T17:43:00.000-08:00

What have you done to my music knowledge? All the bands I used to love or songs I used to know are being replaced by K-Pop titles! I had the hardest time remembering this song last night, and that was before I was drunk.

At least I remembered it as soon as I woke up.

Beware the Ddong Chim

2010-01-28T19:14:00.000-08:00

Letters From Korea for Enter the Shell: Part II

2010-01-19T09:12:00.000-08:00

Hello again, from...the future. My apologies for not having written sooner. After meeting real people and experiencing the culture a bit, I got in the habit of going out every night with my coworkers (which still happens). That and I got my computer to read my DVD's again, so I went on a bit of a 24 binge. I haven't quite recovered from Jack Bauer's awesomeness and still have season 7 to start and finish.

I'm sure you're all curious to know what the school system is like over here, so I'll give you a brief overview before I have to mosey on over to work. If there are any Korean readers out there, forgive me if I butcher the spelling of your language. Firstly, I teach at what is called a Hagwan. A Hagwan is a special private school, or an extended study school where parents force their tired children to learn outside of their everyday public forum. There are English, Math, Science, and various other Hagwans. Hell, there's probably one for hula hooping. By the time the students have reached me at 3:20pm, they've already been up since 6am. I teach several classes and the setting is that of a college where you're in class Monday, Wednesday, and Friday or Tuesday and Thursday, with the exception of two everyday classes. The last class of the day ends at 9:10pm. And yes, some of these kids are up from 6am to 9:10pm, if not later. You'll often see kids leaving other Hagwans at later times. If ever you've complained about your school workload back home in the States, consider yourself lucky.

With all that aside, teaching here is actually fairly easy. I teach four classes on Wednesdays and Fridays, I have five on Mondays and Tuesdays (Monday I have a special class at an earlier time where I teach kindergärtners art). Thursdays are by far my busiest days as I have a special class at 1:30, I've recently been recruited to teach debate right after that to another class, then have my regular five classes straight after. Seven classes from 1:30 to 8:10 with no breaks whatsoever. At least I'm earning that money, right?

In the classroom is where you as a teacher are tested. We're monitored by our bosses and sometimes parents constantly. Parents look for the most minute detail to complain about, but fortunately our bosses are non-confrontational, so I doubt I'll ever get canned (that's assuming I've done poorly as a teacher). My students are fairly smart. I've only a few that cause trouble. Class sizes are small. I have no more than nine students in any class. My smallest class is three students. Now, on to the shit-heads.

My everyday class is by far the worst of all. It's not that they're dumb. Only one of them is. No, the problem is they're unruly, rude, disrespectful, and their English still sounds like they're speaking Korean. It's a class of five students. Three girls and two boys. The girls are all pretty sharp, but because the boys are a bit slower, they tend to get restless and end up making me want to throw them out the fifth story window we're at. One of the girls, Nikki, seems to think she owns the damned place, while Edward, the shit-bag who wears his damned taekwondo skirt to class every day, just doesn't give a shit and ends up getting up and walking to the window, staring out at nothingness. Nikki is egged on by her friend, Mini, who sits right next to her. Together, they're a mess of frustration. Two weeks into teaching, on a Friday, I wondered to myself "my goodness, how long will it take before I make one of these kids burst in to tears?" Little did I know it would be only moments later.

This class, Taurus class, is my first of the day, save for Mondays and Thursdays due to aforementioned special classes (special here doesn't mean retarded). It being Friday, I knew they would be more squirrelly than usual. I came in and two students forgot their books, so I sent one of them to get my book photocopied for class. After several minutes of trying to settle everyone down and the students mocking my threats with fake tears I said quite audibly (my coworkers in the kitchen right next door heard the whole ordeal) "Oh, I'll give you something to cry about." The next kid who acted up was Nikki. The voice turned into a shout, the orders were for her to stand up. Her feeble attempts to scoot closer into her desk met with my pulling the desk away from her and demanding she stand. The look of sadness and fear in her eyes was apparent as she slowly got up. I commanded her to come with me to the teachers room. Still as a stone, she started crying and shook her head. After asking if she was going to silence herself and a confirmation of such, I said she could sit down, then continued to lecture the class on how disrespectful they were. I'm fairly certain it went over their heads, but at least they've managed to be a little more quiet since. Bitch deserved it.

The rest of my classes are all fairly well-behaved. I have a few jerks in some classes, but they're old enough to not make much of an audible fuss. Most students have no problems with me, and, in some cases, they actually like me as a teacher. The new school year starts in March, so I may not have the same kids in about a month, but at least some will remember as something more than a tyrant.

Life otherwise has been busy and relatively eventful. While I've seen many parts of the city of Cheonan, I mainly frequent the same bars. Kooma has been my local hangout (not Akuma, like the guy from Street Fighter) as the beer is cheap, the service is friendly and aside from the constant K-Pop, it's a relaxed atmosphere. While I'd like to delve into my world outside of work, I need other things to talk about.

Shit. I was writing this and put it on hold in order to go to the bar for my friend's birthday. At the bar, one of the bar maids, Ami (not Amy, pronounced "ah-me"), decided she didn't like a photo of herself and deleted all of my photos at once. Granted, her grasp on English is limited, and didn't understand what she was doing, but still, it was 925 photos all together. Granted, I'd uploaded all of them prior to my coming here, but it's 925 photos gone. Hopefully my friend's recovery software will work. Anyway, here are your lottery picks from...the future: Shanghai Chicken Sandwich.

Also, here's a little K-Pop for you. I figured I'd start you off with something easy on the eyes. Here's T-Ara with "Bo Peep":

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8E8VVp1dRs

My First Piece for Enter the Shell's Blog

2010-01-18T19:07:00.000-08:00

Andy’s Entries from South Korea, Vol. 1

by Andy on Jan.03, 2010, under Life

Greetings! from…the future. You know all the stories you’ve heard of Asian mysticism? Like the one where Kurt Russell saves Chinatown from the villains of Mortal Kombat? They’re all true. This is a story of magic, time travel and lots of bad television. Let’s start from the beginning.

I left the greatest land in the world about a week ago for the Iowa-sized country of Korea (South) in order to be a 12 foot tall English teacher who breathes fire and grammatically correct sentences. Two days after Christmas my parents, grandma and brother drove me to LAX. Two days after Christmas, shortly after an attempted bombing at Amsterdam airport, I’m waiting hours in line just to check in for my 15 hour flight to my new home in the city of Cheonan. Teary hugs and kisses goodbye and a long snaking line to the gates later, I’m waiting for flight 301 to Tokyo…which, really, wasn’t much of a wait.

On my flight to Tokyo I sat between an elderly Vietnamese gentleman (who seemed to like grabbing the items I had on my fold-out tray and observing them) and a middle-aged Korean man from the city of Busan (Korea’s beach city) with some sort of medical issue and limited English, taken from his original seat, away from his medication, and forced next to some 22 year-old in fancy hat. If I haven’t mentioned this before, I sleep during turbulence, which allowed for a good nap during take-off and a little more during the flight. I bet you’re wondering when that Asian mysticism is coming in.

The first meal of the flight (first of three) was some sort of meat by-product. After a quick consumption of said meat, you could easily see the discomfort in my face. And hear it in my stomach. And probably smell it in the seats. After a few grumbles, my Korean neighbor saw the consternation in my eyes and got to chopping. Without any forewarning, my back and arms were subsequently hacked at or pinched by this gentleman next to me. I don’t know if it was simply the surprise of a stranger grabbing me, or if it was some sort of mystic healing, but as soon as the first flattened palm hit my back, I stopped feeling sick to my stomach. I’m vouching for the latter.

I wish I could say that the rest of my flight was as eventful, but I’d be lying if I did. I had a two hour lay-over in Tokyo until my flight to Incheon International Airport in Korea. When I did finally arrive in Korea, I thought the driver hired to take me to my apartment had bailed on me (or I’d been screwed over by this agency and they’d stolen my identity). After about 30 frantic minutes trying to use my cell in a foreign land, then their pay phones with their funny characters written all over the place, my driver, Mr. Chang, managed to track me down.

The drive over consisted of Mr. Chang and I exchanging translations on various subjects. I was thoroughly pleased when Mr. Chang kept referring to the things of Korea as “very powerful, number one!” Read that in your stereotypical Asian voice for a good laugh. I learned some basic phrases (I’d say “hello” [Annyang] was one of them, but Arrested Development beat Mr. Chang to it), such as “Kam sa hamida” (thank you) “Chooseyo” (please) and “Makuli” (Rice wine).

I arrived at my new apartment at around midnight and was greeted by my new boss, Frank Lee (yes, Frankly). Settling in, I found that the English TV stations here are 75% Fox. America’s Funniest Home Videos seems to be on at all hours of the day. The same programs get repeated and there never seems to be anything good on. I haven’t yet gotten up the nerve to try the Korean programs. School doesn’t start until Monday, so I’m unfamiliar with my colleagues, save for my boss. Until I’ve gotten to know them and get the opportunity to see the sights with some modicum of comfort, I won’t have anything to report on the culture, though I will say that all of the people I’ve met so far have been friendly, helpful, and polite. I spent New Years alone and fell asleep a couple hours before midnight as I’m not yet accustomed to the time change. I suppose it doesn’t matter since Lunar New Year (or Chinese New Year as we call it in America) is the bigger celebration here. I’ve got about a month to get ready for that one.

I don’t have video for you all as I’m finding difficulty getting my camera to agree with my computer, but as soon as I get it up and running (or I buy a new laptop), I’ll simply have to irritate you all with my writing. Until next time, here are your lottery picks from…the future: 12, 37, 24, 18, and Schnauzer.

Be My Baby

2009-12-01T12:45:00.001-08:00

I'd heard this cover of the Ronettes' "Be My Baby" on a Cialis commercial and I swore the voice was that of Mike Viola, but I couldn't find the commercial online, nor could I find out who did the cover until earlier today. Thank you, Facebook, for bringing me this full-length wonder. Check it out here:
http://apps.facebook.com/ilike/artist/Mike+Viola/track/Be+My+Baby?ad=bizprof_songs

Also, you'll notice a new site to check out on the left there. fmylife.com Enjoy that.

Teaching Abroad

2009-11-17T16:20:00.000-08:00

I recently finished my resume (don't know how to get the accents in there) to teach English abroad. While my original intention was to head to South America, particularly Argentina, I made some revisions to my plan. Given the difficulty of finding a job in South America, along with their reversal of seasons, prompting summer break in January and February, meaning no work until March (earliest) and their requirement of a face-to-face interview, I decided against that route. The amount of money I would save would be minimal and there would be no guarantee of housing or even a job upon my arrival to the South American countries.

It is because of these challenges that I have opted for a different route. I just received an email stating that my resume will be sent out tonight and have been informed by TTI (TESOL Training International) that by the end of next week I should have acquired a position in South Korea. I can only hope this is true as I've already overstayed my comfortable time-frame at home. After the acquisition of a job, I have been informed that it will be about a month before I can leave. The process for obtaining a visa and making sure all of my paperwork is in order will take time, but not too much of it.

I don't know if I will be home for Christmas and/or New Year's Day, but whenever it is I leave, I will be gone for a whole year. It is because of this that I am writing. Before I leave I would like to spend as much time as humanly possible with friends and family. I don't expect anyone to fly out to see me, so I know that I will be a stranger in a strange land and will have no friends to turn to (except for whomever is on XBOX Live) right away and, given my anti-social nature, don't know how easy a time I'll have making them. If you have the time in the next month to spend with the guy who'd give you the shirt off his back or even just have half an hour to spend on the phone for those of you living outside of driving distance, I'd be much obliged.

I do understand that with the internet and all these fancy gizmos that make communication easier these days it won't be any trouble to keep in contact with all of you, but an email or comment on whatever social-networking site simply don't compete with a personalized letter (pen and paper, envelopes, stamps) or the sound of the human voice. If you'd like to receive letters from Korea, I will gladly send them and leave you an address where to reach me as well. I know it's a lot to ask, but I would greatly appreciate all the support I can get and hope that every once in awhile I can receive something from my best friends and family to show that I haven't been forgotten in a foreign land.

While I know that this trip/adventure will certainly be a tremendous growing experience for me, there's nothing more comforting than knowing there are people back home who will eagerly await my return and greatly miss my absence. What can I say? I like knowing people give a damn and show it. Would I do anything less? Whatever the case, I'm excited to leave and get to earning some money while experiencing a different culture. Even if I don't understand a damn word they're saying. I know I haven't yet gotten a contract, but if you're interested in having letters and gifts mailed to you while I'm away, click on my profile photo on the left there (the yellow drawing of me) and you'll see a link to my email address where you can leave your information. I'll update you all with information about my future contract and departure date and any possible going-away party that I may hold, but for now this is all I've got. Until next time. And don't forget to check out the birthday podcast.

Birthday Cast

2009-11-17T12:26:00.000-08:00

It's already up. As soon as I finish some work over here I'll have some information to give. Stay tuned.

Birthday Bragg

2009-11-13T10:20:00.000-08:00

At least now there's a bit more truth to this song when I sing it to myself. Now I just need a time machine so that I can actually be the one to go back and claim authorship.

Sara & Andy Lead the Drinkcast

2009-11-10T10:24:00.000-08:00

New episode is up. Git on over dare!

No Children

2009-11-09T17:41:00.000-08:00

In case you wanted to hear the song in the middle of the set of the Mountain Goats in-studio:

What's That?

2009-11-09T11:06:00.000-08:00

Turrtle relieves himself of hosting duties for a day?! That's right, Sara and I get to figure things out as far as hosting goes without guidance from the master himself. How do we do? You'll just have to find out later this week! Until then, here's a preview:

Link on the left. You'll also notice a new link for you all: People of Wal-Mart.

Mountain Goats on MPR

2009-11-09T11:00:00.001-08:00

New Drinkcast Up

2009-11-03T16:42:00.000-08:00

The Drinkcast gang meets at 6am for the Cove's "Sunday, Bloody Mary Sunday." Banners and posters are now advertising our show inside the Cove! Go check it out, you know where the link is at. ON THE LEFT!

Now I've got to get back to watching Hall & Oates & Keyboard Cat.

A Fix of Pete Townshend/the Who

2009-11-02T22:54:00.000-08:00

That Time of Year

2009-10-23T14:45:00.000-07:00

Time for...Haunted House!

Watch & Listen!

2009-10-16T12:31:00.000-07:00

Come on down! Watch and listen as I make a fool of myself while eating 18 tacos! Link to ETS on the left! Show your support with a listenin' and a commentin'!

2009-10-14T12:18:00.000-07:00

Hello all,

First off, I'll be starting a class tonight. That class will get me certified to teach English to people abroad. We're not talking literature, etc. We're talking about the language. The program has been running for 8 years and only 3 of the over 4,500 applicants have been denied a job, so unless I'm a drunken mess, I'm pretty sure I have a job after this shindig. The company I'm going through will send out my resume to the countries of my choosing and find me a job. Pretty simple, right? I'll update you all on that madness. The class goes until Sunday night. Five days, certification and an almost guaranteed job? Not bad, I'd say!

Secondly, The drinkcast is taking off! We've got a special episode airing next week where Turrtle interviews Gregory "mother effing" Carlos, bartender of the Cove which gladly accepts us crazy people each week, and I take the Del Taco Challenge. I get a nickname for the show and Sara and Turrtle get really drunk. Keep tuning in and help the ETS crew gain some recognition! Spread the word. Use the link on the left, copy and post it on all of those social-networking sites you frequent.

Anyway. That's all.

Does Andy Take the Del Taco Challenge?

2009-10-14T12:15:00.000-07:00

Yes. But you won't find out the outcome until next week. Here's a teaser to get you all excited (and/or disgusted) for such a momentous occasion.

UPDATE:
I've been informed that the episode mentioned above will air 10/15/09. That's today!

Drink Cast: Episode 3

2009-10-12T23:01:00.000-07:00

Preview for tomorrow's episode (which also happens to be Sam's birthday):

Your link, as always, on the left.

DrinkCast 2

2009-09-29T11:26:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,

Episode two of DrinkCast is up. This episode features a discussion on the greatness that is Del Taco, how Sara and I (and Turrtle) met as well as some other neatness. Like my chest hair. Tune in, leave a comment, enjoy (or don't).

Promo

2009-09-28T13:00:00.000-07:00

Here's the latest promo for DrinkCast on ETS. Enjoy that beef.

Things You Should Be Buying Today

2009-09-22T10:42:00.000-07:00

Birdmonster - Blood Memory (B-sides for $5! Only available on itunes)
Sea Wolf - White Water, White Bloom (in stores and online)
Craig Ferguson - American on Purpose (it's a book; in case any of you out there can still read)

Enter the Shell (dot com)

2009-09-20T00:27:00.000-07:00

Well everyone, if you've tuned in lately, you'll know that I recently recorded a "drinkcast" with some friends of mine for www.entertheshell.com. And, by their good graces, I was asked back not only a second time, but to be a co-host for all drinkcasts from here on out. Tonight (the 19th) we recorded a second show for all of you listeners out there that will air in two weeks time. But don't just listen because I'm on there; listen because it's quality programming that you can hear at any time during the day. There should be a promo up soon for "talk like a pirate day" as well as the new episode of "drinkcast". Your link is on the left.

Out Now

2009-09-15T13:23:00.001-07:00

http://www.entertheshell.com/podcast/

Tuesday

2009-09-14T14:42:00.000-07:00

Here's a preview.

Heads Up!

2009-09-08T01:19:00.001-07:00

Earlier this evening I went to the Cove with some friends of mine and participated in a recording of Enter the Shell's first ever "drink-cast." So in a couple of weeks you can look for yours truly and a few other (blogging) friends of mine on a podcast. If you're not a fan of Enter the Shell, or haven't checked it out yet, then head on over to their website where you can download content and listen to shows about music and life (because we all know that music drives life, but life happens even when music isn't around). Have fun and I'll let you know when you can hear my (not so) beautiful voice on digital airwaves. There's also a link on the left.

More for Your Listening Pleasure

2009-09-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

Joe Jackson

Happy Loving Couples

Depeche Mode

Just Can't Get Enough

Dan Auerbach (of the Black Keys , with Jessica Lea Mayfield on backing vocals)

When the Night Comes

The Best/Worst Part About Living at Home

2009-09-06T23:26:00.001-07:00

The alcohol. My folks aren't really drinkers, so over the years they've acquired various bottles of booze and wine from friends/co-workers of theirs who feel it necessary to add to the collection every time there's a party at our place. This means that I don't have to pay for the hard stuff since the only other person that drinks is my dad, and he'll only have beer (though my mom's been known to use some in various recipes). This also means that I drink alone. Like right now. Sure, listening to records with a good drink is great, but you can really get lonely. Or run into walls/fall down the stairs. I'm going to get back to my G&T.

Things I Don't Like

2009-09-03T22:03:00.000-07:00

Tecate Light commercials. I can't tell you how irritated I get by them, so I'll just post this 30 seconds of agony that tells everyone how Mexico changed the system in the U.S. Oh yeah, they really shook things up. The first commercial they put out about changing the way things worked made some sense in that they actually had things that could be associated with Chicano culture. It was irritating, sure, but it made sense. The second one they released just makes you want to slap someone. Here, we'll do a play by play on "bold changes"

1) A hero who follows his own rules? The man wears a mask. So what? Yeah, Mexican wrestling is more into that stuff, but televised wrestling is staged, and it's an American show that dictates who wins and peddles cheap excitement to a drooling audience. It's not Mexican because he chose to be the symbol of hope to Mexican wrestlers in th eU.S.
2) Changing language by "letting everyone get the message"? You're saying that you're letting everyone know that your yappy little dog might bite your ankles? Or the message that the dog you have is irritating? Yeah, we already knew that when it kept us up til 3am barking at shadows. How is a sign that says "perro malo" letting everyone get the message of something that was boldly changed by Mexicans? A "beware of dog" sign does the same thing. If there's a picture of a vicious looking dog on a gate, I think you've got the message. And if you've got a "perro malo" sign with a little rat-dog behind it, then it's not intimidating. The message you're sending is you're trying to be ironic by having a sign that says "bad dog" in spanish with some irritating dumpster-fuck to piss on your feet and then shiver the rest of the day because of the fear it has of everything that surrounds it.
3) Changing fashion by making it your own, huh? Y'know, the Mexicans already had their own unique fashion. And by putting a "clever" label on your shirt that makes fun of a high-class brand doesn't mean it's a uniquely Mexican/Mexican-American thing. Hell, capitalist companies market Che shirts. Does that mean they've changed communism and made it their own? Hell no! It means they made money off a bunch of saps with misplaced ideals. Just because you make Versace "Versanchez" doesn't give you a pass at a "bold change." And by having a guy with the perpetual stubble and the carefully preened "just got out of bed" look who appears to be no more Mexican than you or I, doesn't really sell the ticket.
4) The announcer doesn't even sound hispanic! He sounds like a white guy trying too damned hard to be the regular deep-voiced commercial announcer, but with a crappy accent. It sounds like my purposely gringoed accent when I pronounce Spanish words.
C'mon, what's even worse is that the people putting out the commercial know how stupid it is. Are those ads really going to make more Chicanos drink a shitty, new light beer? Nope. The same people are still going to drink it. People who want to get drunk off of cheap beer. But I can tell you that I'll never pick up a case of that crap, and I'm thinking that even regular Tecate has lost my occasional support. Jeez. Friggin' ad monsters. Had to go and rile me up.

Ben Affleck's a Dick

2009-09-03T02:43:00.001-07:00

Craig Ferguson

2009-09-03T01:44:00.000-07:00

Craig Ferguson has become my favorite late night T.V. host. I'm not sure if it's because the man is funny, and, given the time-slot, is given leeway to be more absurd, or because by the time he comes on, I'm usually buzzed, but he's taken the spot in my heart of late night. Conan used to hold that spot, but ever since he moved to the Tonight Show, he's been forced to "mellow out". Don't get me wrong, he's still worth watching and retains his charm, but being in the hour that calls for some moderation, he's been stifled a bit. Seriously, changing "the year 2000" to "the year 3000" is absurd! That's just one example of he shift that's taken place in Late Night (Nite). Whatever the case is, here's It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

Wishes

2009-09-02T02:41:00.000-07:00

I wish I were a billionaire (even a millionaire would work) so that I could be like Bruce Wayne and fight crime. Seriously, if I had billions of dollars and didn't actually have to work a day in my life, I'd want to take up crime-fighting as a hobby. How bad ass is Batman? The man makes hardened criminals shit their pants and beg for their mommies! It's just a shame I don't have any way to make that kind of cash. Sadness.

Andy? Working?

2009-08-31T22:23:00.000-07:00

Que es esto? So, being the lazy bum that I am, rather than going out and looking for a job, I took the first one that came to me. I have to say, it's not a bad gig...I think. Honestly, I don't exactly know what I'll be doing, but I'll be making money, I'll get to sleep in and it's in a field not deemed "customer service". My Ma hooked me up with a deal at her school working some after school program. This means that maybe I should make myself look like a respectable member of society. And you know what that means? I'm going out looking for ties, collared shirts and slacks. The downside is I'll have to drive out to L.A. five days a week. Sure, it's not exactly what I wanted to be doing with my life, but if I wasn't willing to go out there and find out what it is I want to do, I'll take what I can get. And this way I can't stay at home complaining that I don't have friends around to hang out with during the day. I just need to keep it up until May or June at the latest. Or until I have enough money to safely pay rent for a few months in a different city/state. Whatever. I guess I'm getting back in the swing of things here with writing or whatnot. It's still not good, but hey, it's something to do while waiting for Conan to come on.

B-Sides

2009-08-31T17:13:00.000-07:00

Birdmonster's releasing an album of B-Sides called Blood Memory on September 22nd! You can download one of the songs here for free.
I heard this one live a while back. Good to hear it recorded. You can bet I'll have the album as soon as it comes out.

Ted Leo

2009-08-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

I requested this song at tonight's (8/28/09) show at the echo and had it played. It proceeded like so:

Andy (shouting): 2nd Ave, 11am!
Ted (to the audience): It's a suggestion.
Ted (inaudible talk with the band)
Ted (to the audience): Sure, why not?
Andy: WOO!

Faces were then rocked off.

SWEET JESUS!

2009-08-21T16:36:00.001-07:00

http://www.aetv.com/news/?id=391368

Must watch.

More Songs Stuck in My Head

2009-08-21T02:14:00.000-07:00

Elvis Costello

Everyday I Write the Book

Hall & Oates (Andrew, thanks for this one)

You Make My Dreams Come True (I thought the cat was better than the regular video. Again, thanks Andrew.)

Thin Lizzy

Romeo and the Lonely Girl

Things About Andy

2009-08-12T01:35:00.000-07:00

1) I've had a few beers.
2) I love my dog, Frank. She's 12 years old and going strong. She recently had surgery to remove a tumor from her left eyelid. After she returned home from the vet, she was having difficulty standing up due to the pain killers/anesthetic she was given. I laughed as her left paw kept sliding out from underneath her.
3) For about a month and a half I've noticed Frank's food has been eaten by a stray cat. This cat is spotted black and white with a nub for a tail.
4) Tonight, this cat was quite bold in trying to sneak into our house while I was on the couch watching Conan (O'Brien, not the Barbarian, though I was watching "the Destroyer" on G4 yesterday).
5) While deathly allergic to cats, I can't help but want to take this cat in and keep it safe from harm. Maybe it's the alcohol, maybe it's the compassionate, animal-lover in me (save for farm animals meant to be eaten. Chain 'em up, keep 'em in cages, so long as you keep 'em tasting delicious).
6) Boredom and the feeling of loser-ness has set in. I hate my hometown and need to get out before I go insane.
7) My Cross-Country team's alumni race is coming up on Thursday. I will be there to feast on free food.
8) Where are my pants?
9) Jack Bauer is my hero.
10) That is all. Good night.

Not Really A Return

2009-08-09T17:52:00.000-07:00

I've had a few songs stuck in my head over these past few weeks. Thought I'd share 'em.

J Geils Band - Freeze Frame

Thin Lizzy

Jailbreak

Rush

Tom Sawyer

Commercial

2009-07-29T10:55:00.000-07:00

I saw this commercial for the first time a couple days ago and I couldn't stop laughing. So here I am to share it with you all.

Mantracker

2009-07-22T20:30:00.000-07:00

Mantracker rules! I friggin' love this show. If you're too lazy to watch the clip below, here's the premise: Two people are left alone in the wilderness and have to reach a destination 25 miles away in 36 hours. Easy, right? Wrong! A professional tracker is hot on their tails, often with a guide equally as capable that's familiar with the terrain. Needless to say, Mantracker is a bad ass. Most of the time it's city-slickers and punk-ass jerks who think they're the shit and they always get caught. Sam, I think you'll like this episode as it's two trained police officers trying to outsmart Mantracker. Ch-ch-ch-check it:

Andy Like

2009-07-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

http://mindfullymusing.files.wordpress.com/2008/12/mfa-baker.jpg

Oh yeah, Texas was good. Here's a photo:

More Updates

2009-07-06T14:52:00.000-07:00

As I'm sure you can all tell, I haven't been updating as frequently as I did while in school. Part of it has to do with the fact that it's summer and I'm finding things to do with my time, part of it is that I feel I really don't have much to write about (not that I ever wrote about anything important anyway). Chances are I won't have much to say for a good while. Not to say I haven't been keeping busy. I've had my share of dull and uneventful moments since graduation. Plenty of them. But mostly I've been doing lots of hiking/backpacking/camping, some traveling, and getting important things squared away so that I can start earning an income that isn't $9/hour behind a counter. Just so that all of you I haven't seen or spoken to in some time can get caught up, I'll give you a few things I've been up to, which I probably won't write in-length about later (unless I one day write an autobiography). Here they are:

I've summited two of Southern California's three highest mountains and plan on tackling the third (and I think the smallest) before summer's up.

I've gone camping in the Southern Sierras both by myself and with a friend. One trip consisted of a 12 mile round trip hike to an old resort in the middle of a valley. Built in the 1870's as a saw mill, it was later converted into a getaway hot springs for celebrities in the 1940's and closed in the late 1970's.

I made the front page of the Chino Hills Champion (again) on accident by simply being in the background of a photo. Here it is:

Yep. That's me, alright. The one with the wide-eyes and confused look. You're probably wondering what I'm doing there. Two words. Beer.

On another note, I both took (as you all know) my C-BEST exam and just today I received my official results. I passed with flying colors. And by flying colors, I mean good enough. I guess that means I should go and start applying for substitute jobs.

Shortly after that picture was taken I made my way up to the Bay Area with an old high school friend, her boyfriend and her boyfriend's ladyfriend. To be honest, I just needed a ride up because my truck probably wouldn't have made it there and back. As soon as we made it up there I reunited with Scott (rather, he picked me up and saved me from hippies). We had cigars and drinks to wash away Berkeley's stench and made our way to Sonoma to catch Birdmonster play at a winery (of all places). If you're a regular reader then you know who they are and probably know what they look like from all the music of theirs I post on this site. Anyways, I sold their merch for them, got a song dedicated to me (the closing song, which I requested), got plenty of pictures of them rocking out and even one of me with 'em. Again, if you're a regular, you should recognize them all as the four people on the left of that photo up top with me right at the end there. In case you've forgotten:

Come Wednesday I'll be heading to Texas. Haven't been there since I was about five and I was sheriff of Dallas. But those damned airport security guards stripped me of my justice dispensing plastic guns as I left. I was a sad sheriff that day.

The 16th, 18th & 19th of this month I'll be taking a riding class with Sam. I've already got my permit to ride and once I finish this class it'll waive the license exam and just give me what I want already. So by the end of July I plan to have a motorcycle.

Aside from that, I can't say much has gone on. At least nothing else I'd really like to comment on. Yes, Michael Jackson died. Yes, I wish it were a huge marketing scheme for him to go on a Thriller comeback tour. Yes, I'm tired of hearing about it all. And to you who tried to fool me into thinking Jeff Goldblum died too, I give you a hearty fist shaking. I guess that's about it for now. Talk to you soon.

YES!

2009-06-26T00:39:00.000-07:00

Take THAT, Midgar Zolom! I just got your "Beta," so you Beta watch out!

What the Fuck is this Shit?!

2009-06-25T20:17:00.000-07:00

I'm all for Stan Bush re-doing "The Touch" for the new Transformers movie, but honestly? What's this Linkin Park-esque bull shit? It sounds God awful! What the hell is with that rap? Give me the original with the lazers shooting out of the guitar and the totally awesome fist pumping sound!

I Really Want This Shirt

2009-06-22T21:21:00.001-07:00

Updates

2009-06-22T02:06:00.000-07:00

Going to Texas from the 7th to the 11th. Doing some hiking/backpacking/camping from now until then. Taking a riding class on the 16th. Applying for subs positions as soon as I get my results on the 29th.

Just for you:

C-BEST

2009-06-13T16:02:00.000-07:00

My advice to those of you with college degrees living in the state of California:

Take the C-BEST. It essentially gauges whether or not you're capable of reading. You don't need to have a degree to take the test, but you can't use it without one. The exam allows those with degrees to apply for substitute positions as well as teaching credential programs. I understand that the need for teachers at this moment in time is low (unless you're math or science-oriented) and many are being laid off and those who have already lost their jobs are the ones filling the subbing positions, but the test itself, for only four hours of your time and a small chunk of change (less than $100 if you register on time), opens up opportunities for employment later on down the line. And believe you me, that is by far the easiest test I have ever taken.

As stated earlier, it's whether or not you can read. The math section seldom dives into the field of algebra and only one basic question on elementary geometry (perimeter). It's comprised of a 50 question reading, 50 question writing and 2 writing prompts no more than 2 small pages of text each. They won't allow for any more writing. As my father said, it basically tests if you're smart enough to be around little kids. Hell, if you're dumb enough to fail the thing you don't even have to worry about it, you can take it as many times as you want!

If anyone out there is interested in taking the test or just want to look into it, here's the link. As soon as I get my results (19 days from now) I plan on applying to a few districts. In running into a former teacher of mine I found that schools that you attended previously would want you as a substitute simply for knowing the teachers there and being trustworthy (unless you weren't the trustworthy type). It may not be glamorous or stable, but I'm hoping it'll be something to help me save a little somethin' somethin' to get moseyin'.

Until later.

Top 5

2009-06-12T02:59:00.000-07:00

Top 5 reasons you should still read/check up on this site:

5) Now I've got a proper learnin'
4) I'll be doing and have done some traveling
3) You're not doing anything else with your time
2) Now with vitamin C (not scientifically proven)
1) I'm not dead

Yep

2009-06-12T01:54:00.001-07:00

I'll See You Soon

2009-05-23T05:00:00.000-07:00

Gradjayshun!

2009-05-22T13:20:00.000-07:00

I should be on campus at 3ish for graduation. Starts at 4 and 6, then dinner at 8:30 with the folks. I've been waiting for this day. To quote one of the greatest movies ever: "I would have waited an eternity for this." Except...y'know...I wouldn't have. I should have some photos up right after I get back home.

From My Aunt in Texas

2009-05-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Andy,

Congratulations!!!! You did it! Freedom!!! I wish I could be there with the family to share in this awesome day in your life! I will be with you in spirit though....all day long ('cause I don't know at what time of the day is graduation!) Both Vic and I are very proud of you and know that you will do great things.

I often think about the long talk that we had the night I stayed over at your mom's. It was a great conversation. I learned so much about you! That evening I also felt sad because I realized that I had missed out on seeing you and J grow up because I've lived so far away. Yes, I remember funny episodes of you all's trip to Texas such as the airport incident -cowboy boots, hat and guns; the "It's not easy being cheesy" repeated over and over by the so patient Vic; how scared you were when I turned on the bubbles in the jacuzzi, etc.; how no one couldn't get you out of the video arcade inside the Hypermart - what a hissy fit you threw over there boy! Those are all great memories, but I wish we could have others as well.

What an exciting future awaits you. I bet that you feel the freedom oozing out of your pores by now. As you take off on your trip, I just want to ask you (without sounding totally geriatric) Please be careful. I know that you must forge your own view of the world and set your own perspective. I know that this trip will be a soul-searching opportunity. You will learn a lot about you. As you search for meaning and purpose, remember that there are so many different ways by which we can set off to find them (meaning and purpose). Like for instance, I totally see you traveling the world with a bunch of young people like yourself learning about other cultures; helping to build schools and houses for children and families that have never been out of their own village (in these cases I don't see you drinking the water!) I also see you teaching people, helping them learn how to help themselves... Anyway, I could be totally off by miles, but those are some of the images that came to me after our long chat that night.

I'm not sure when you are living for your trip but I think I remember you saying that you were taking off right after graduation. I'm sending you something in the mail for when you get back. So, be cautious, have fun, learn alot, and remember to keep in touch. Know that I love you and that I'm proud of you. A big, big hug from Vic, too.

Love,

Majulia ;o)

Because It's True

2009-05-21T16:13:00.001-07:00

CELEBRATE!

2009-05-21T15:00:00.000-07:00

The Requisite Alice Cooper

2009-05-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

Next In Line

2009-05-21T09:15:00.000-07:00

Sam, if this is anything like Shadow of the Colossus, I may just crap my pants.

At 10:30 the first of my last two finals begins.

In Less Than 18 Hours

2009-05-20T21:37:00.000-07:00

In less than 18 hours I'll be done. DONE! Oh, how glorious a feeling it is. Seventeen years of frustration will be gone. Never to be seen or heard from again. Until Friday, of course. But that's just the official celebration of the leaving of this crap. Sweet Jesus, this is a feeling words can't describe. DONE! HAHA! Two finals left. From 10:30 to 3:00 (latest) I'll be in class. For the last time. Oh, how good it feels. I just have to BS two more written finals. TWO MORE! I have cigars to laugh victoriously with. DONE! DONE! DONE! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

!

2009-05-20T12:02:00.000-07:00

Good God, could this be happening? I don't want to wait 30 hours to find out! Wait for the lightning flashes. It's a number 5. A NUMBER 5!

Two Finals Done

2009-05-19T21:40:00.000-07:00

Three more to go along with a three page paper. Just gotta take the online quizzes for Geology now and I'll be set for tomorrow's final. Now let's get back to these quizzes. Victory will be mine. Insert evil laugh here.

10 Pager Down

2009-05-18T19:26:00.000-07:00

Five finals and a three page paper are all that's left. Forget C's, D's get degrees, baby! Time for pizza.

The Spot

2009-05-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

I now have The Spot. No, that's not a disease. If anyone wants to be on the email/text list for this thing then email me your address and/or your phone number and service provider.

I also have a flask and a new knife (thank you Sam). A good knife.

Finals are coming up. Expect frustrated writings. Then relieved and happy writings. Because I will be done. Forever.

A Few Things Here

2009-05-13T11:16:00.000-07:00

1) I wouldn't be putting Captain Planet up here if it weren't for a good reason. That reason is Jeff Goldblum. He plays Verminous Skumm (the villain in the red hood)
2) How does telling a small town a lie about how AIDs is spread lead to ruling the world?
3) "I don't care how I got it, IT STINKS!"

Regarding Yesterday's Hike

2009-05-12T23:35:00.000-07:00

At the 2.5 mile mark on the way back to the parking lot I noticed my left Achilles begin to ache. I thought perhaps it might be the new boots, but alas the pain has continued on in my trusty pair of shoes. It has made shifting gears and walking irritable. I have only one thing to say about this. "That's booty, son!"

Notes for 561 Final

2009-05-12T11:12:00.000-07:00

Tournier, Duras, Camus

Y'know...I'll just look up the Cliff's notes on these things. Probably easier than listening to the human sleeping pill.

More Hiking 'n' Stuff

2009-05-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

On my way back from home today I stopped by my dad's friend, Larry's place. Unfortunately my dad couldn't join us today, but we went out to San Jacinto and put in an 11 mile hike in about 5 hours. While we were on the trail we met up with a bunch of "Thru-Hikers." Thru-Hikers are people backpacking the Pacific Crest Trail which goes from the U.S./Mexico border to about nine miles into Canada. The whole trek is roughly 2,650 miles. The prime time to leave was two weeks ago and most of the folks we spoke with were at that marker. One of the guys had recently mailed back his tent as he felt he didn't need it until Kennedy Meadows. That same guy has the same backpack I do. I was (am) envious. Here these people were out doing something that very few attempt and even less complete. While I'm uncertain as to how many of the folks we saw today will be in Canada about 4 months from now, I do wish them all the best of luck.

Larry and I ended up getting beer and sandwiches at the Winchester Inn afterward and I made it back to SD by 10pm. Getting to and from Hemet takes a lot longer than it should.

On a side note: Happy birthday, Marina.

Music For 5/7/09

2009-05-07T11:26:00.000-07:00

In celebration of the momentous day that is today, here's a little somethin' for you all

I Really Want A Cigarette

2009-05-07T02:04:00.000-07:00

It's been almost 3 months since my last smoke. The last time (and first time) I smoked since I quit on December 15th was exactly 2 months afterward on February 15th. No, it wasn't due to being alone on Valentine's Day, it was because I was absolutely frustrated with people annoying me at work. Since that day I haven't had a puff, a drag, anything despite the fact that I've wanted to for quite some time. And as I said, I told you that I'd let you all know if I did in fact break my vow. But now, at 2am as I'm about to sleep with "What's Shakin' on the Hill" in my ears (on repeat) and a particular knowledge of the past, present and future (and not to mention a few beers), I can't help but want to light up and have a pack. I know there are less than 3 weeks left of school, but it seems as though the world chose to hit me hard. Come the 21st I'll be free of all the difficulties of school forever.

Visiting home every weekend brings back the tension and the anxiety of dealing with a town that disgusts me. I've spent lots of time with my family. My ma has asked me how a person so young could develop so much hatred for the world. I don't know if it's necessarily a hatred for the world, simply for the town that carelessly brought me up and taught me that nothing was sacred, that disappointment was around every corner and that being "too nice" means being subject to misery and pain that no one can fathom.

If society dictates what's right and wrong, what's moral and immoral, then society has said that Andy Suarez does not belong amongst its ranks. When your entire life you've been left behind for genericism and told that having an opinion differing from the populous is blasphemy, that respecting people and being a reliable individual is seen as taboo and "desperate" you tend to lose hope in yourself. When having been claimed to be a "fundamentally decent" person or for being the person to help a friend stand up after having fallen down only to be pulled into the mud by that very same person happens on a continual basis, there's not much the "fundamentally decent" want to do. Simply put, the one "too nice" or the good person who frequently gets told that he is good or nice is avoided, neglected, put down, rejected, etc., they cease being the person everyone says they are and they become bitter, uncaring, depressed, hate-filled and empty.

I guess my problem is that I cared too much for a world that never bothered to give a damn about a kid trying to maintain some sort of dignity, pride, or decency toward the rest. For me the end of college isn't finding a job, starting a life in which I settle down, decide a career, it's the beginning of a search. What I'll find, I'm uncertain, but whatever it is that's out there has to be better than the false hopes and dreams that I've acquired and imagined over the years. But I wonder if even these thoughts that what comes next will provide a life fulfillment or accomplishment.

And yet I can't help but think that perhaps one day everyone will come to their senses. People once believed in a geocentric universe, but there were those that defied this notion. They went against popular belief and though they were persecuted, they were right. While it was scientifically proven later that the Earth indeed revolved around the sun, there's no possible way to prove to anyone that I'm worth listening to or worth fighting for. It seems as though I've been forced into exile. To everyone I'm wrong. Even when I'm right, my peers say I'm but a crackpot, living in times of old with standards no one adheres to.

Now the respectable gentleman who outwardly gives a damn is overshadowed by a trend and the least common denominator. My kind are going extinct and the world could care less. And here I remain, fighting for standards and a way of life that has been deemed obsolete. What's left? What is there to fight for if all say that you're not even worth holding on to?

I'm not perfect. I'm far from it. I'm just a guy who tries to help those in need. But what happens when I'm in need and no one wants to help? When you're too selfish to even consider the pain and suffering of others, what happens to those who fought for you? They get removed. Swept under rugs to be hidden and out of sight so as not to remind those of the shame they've brought upon themselves; for having forgotten the values of old. But what's swept under the rug doesn't go away. You know it's there and it haunts you. Remember that.

I know that as always my writings are ill-conceived, poorly written and idiotic, but if it struck a chord with any of you, then I guess it was worth it. when my ma asks me the aforementioned question, I never know what to answer. I know that my words on this website are often whiny, moronic and worthless, but I started this for a reason, and that reason was to relieve stress. Whether anyone reads this or not, I don't care. I will say this, though: I'll be buying a new journal soon. My two previous ones will be burned as a way of moving away from the past. No point in looking backward. Until next time.

Hiking

2009-05-05T11:39:00.000-07:00

Went hiking with my dad and his friend yesterday. We and climbed about 5 miles (10 miles out and back) of San Gorgonio. We weren't able to summit due to the hard hard-pack snow, but I honestly don't think we would have made it in one day. My dad has foot problems and was struggling just to make it to the camp site we stopped at. Though part of the trouble was at one point we lost the trail and rather than using switchbacks and a dirt road to come around one of the lower peaks, we ended up trailblazing through snow up an unstable mountain. Until we found the trail on the other side. The beginning of the trail was 1.2 miles up hill at about a 20% grade with 100 feet worth of ascension every 10th of a mile. Getting the hardest part of the trail out of the way first was better than having to tackle that monster at the end. Though it being an out-and-back trip, the wear and tear of the trail with the addition of the steep hill pounding away at our knees at the very end left us all sore and drained. I carried about half the weight of what I'd be carrying with a week's worth of supplies, including 5 liters of water and ample amounts of gear (I had everything except food and clothing packed). I'm not in shape and quickly fell out of it when school started up at the end of January. I've got a few weeks to re-condition myself. I know the trail was grueling yesterday, but completing only 10 miles in 8 hours isn't really making good time. I know the break for lunch was about an hour, as were the multiple stops to wait for my dad, but I can't imagine I would have done much more than 18 miles on my own only going one way. I suppose the terrain, elevation gain and loss would dictate how much I could do. I remember back in January I completed 10 miles in 4 hours, but the gain and loss wasn't great and the grade wasn't severe when I did climb. Either way, my dad's friend Larry has given me his trekking rods as a graduation gift. They're actually really helpful and saved me from tripping and injuring myself plenty of times yesterday. They're designed to ease some of the stress of a pack's weight and provide stability. I hadn't really considered using them, but after being fatigued and being as clumsy on your feet as I am, they're more useful than you might think. The fact that they're lightweight is a huge plus as well. I'll have some time before school ends to get a few more hikes in.

Music for 4/30/09

2009-04-30T16:54:00.000-07:00

Has She Got a Friend?

Hurrm

2009-04-30T13:01:00.000-07:00

Nearing the end here. A check list has been set up. I have most all of the things I need. I'm getting antsy to get out. Only a few more belongings to move back. I don't know where I'm going to keep everything. I've another bed that will be occupying space. Perhaps it'll go in the "rec room." My last day of work is today. Head down. Let's power through this.

Six String Samurai

2009-04-28T17:19:00.001-07:00

Should be coming in the mail soon.

Music For 4/26/09

2009-04-26T01:43:00.000-07:00

Weezer

The Greatest Man That Ever Lived

2012? I Have to Wait That Long?

2009-04-23T17:18:00.001-07:00

This better be worth it.

Computer Problems

2009-04-23T11:45:00.000-07:00

Last night I was writing a paper on Common Sense. What should have only taken one hour at most took me three. It had nothing to do with "writer's block" or anything like that. It had to do with a computer on the Fritz. A couple nights ago my trusty laptop of four years decided to start freezing up every few seconds. I'd be typing or watching a video and it would cease any action. And rather than catching up with my keystrokes after each freeze, it would be selective of them. That's pretty annoying when you're on a roll with some sentences/paragraphs and you find that half of the sentence you'd just typed got cut off and jumbled. Slowly but surely I finished the paper without completely forgetting what I was writing. For about two hours I struggled to figure out what was wrong with my computer as every time I'd go to print the computer would shut itself off. Finally around 1 am after several attempts to restart the PC, I discovered that at an angle my computer ran perfectly fine. So after finally being able to print the damned thing I ran a virus scan and stacked some CDs to let the thing run all night. Come 8:30 am, the thing was and is running just dandy. What's wrong with this thing? I don't know, but I only hope that this baby will just get me through May. Stay strong, my pet.

Music For 4/20/08

2009-04-20T16:22:00.001-07:00

I didn't realize the date until I started typing the title. I'm sure most of Southern California is stoned right now. And I'm sure I'm going to hear about everyone's adventures with marijuana tomorrow. This has no influence over the choice of music. I just felt like giving you guys some Cheap Trick and noticed the day.

Finished

2009-04-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

Well I got it all worked out. My ma wanted me to add some songs, but she didn't nay-say anything I threw in there, though I questioned my own judgment on a couple songs. Here's a list:

1) Clap Your Hands! - Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
2) That's How You Know - From the Enchanted soundtrack (Ma's entry)
3) She Called Up - Crowded House
4) You Can't Stop the Beat - From the Hairspray soundtrack (Ma's entry)
5) Walking to Do - Ted Leo/Pharmacists
6) Sweet Lady - What Made Milwaukee Famous
7) Heart - Rockpile
8) The Square Root of Two - The Two Man Gentlemen Band
9) Short Skirt/Long Jacket - Cake (Ma's entry)
10) What's Shakin' on the Hill - Nick Lowe (one of my questionable ones)
11) 1922 - Charlie Parr (one of my questionable ones)
12) Backwards with Time - The Avett Brothers
13) We're Going to be Friends - The White Stripes (Ma's entry)
14) Dry Bed - Billy Bragg
15) I've Just Got to Tell You - Dr. Dog

It turned from a 30 minute to a 45 minute CD with Ma's additions, but I guess she's just going to skip around to the ones she wants to play. Maybe I shoulda snuck in the Violent Femmes's "Add it Up". That sure would've gotten the kids and parents all in a ruckus. Well. Until next time.